Thursday, January 10, 2008

You Do.


Mouths are moving
People talking slowly In my ears
Another year goes


You stood up gently
Turned around
To face me staring back
"I'll see you sometime soon"


If only I could see the way you do.


The midnight air it blows
Between my fingertips
So cold
As I walk back inside


It's hard for me to understand
How you could die for me
When I fall short sometimes


If only I could see the way you do.
If only I could see the way
And if only I could see the way you do.

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

The walls are closing in on me again today;


So...Monday. Monday was warm. It was wonderful, in that "smell of spring" kind of way, but I am a big believer of seasons. I think that soon it will be summer and I will be wishing that there was some snow... Especially since I am going to Florida. Ahh I hate the weather in Florida. Finally it is chilly again today in Wexford. It is quite pleasant I think.



Man I have been drinking a lot of tea lately... Tazo Giant Peach (awesome) yesterday, and this very tasty, large bottle of Lipton Lemon today. I love iced tea... Anyways,



Dad has been really awesome lately... he has just been happy since he got home. He was probably sick of being away and everything, plus the blast furnace he was there to work on blew up (!) it was insane, thankfully he wasn't there and nobody got hurt. But yeah he has just been pleasant... lots of laughs and jokes... mom has been really hyped up... she needs to calm down. I hope she takes today to relax... the last week of me being home is always stressful or everybody.



I am gonna miss everything... I mean I am super excited about going to be with Stephen next week and I am (kinda) ready to tackle this semester. I mean. Mentally... mentally totally I am ready in the sense that I want to do an awesome Job... but physically I don't feel like going back and all. Dang, I had a really good talk with Mal last night... she is not doing well emotionally. She knows all the answers in the sense that she knows God. She is really someone I look up to spiritually... she is really close with God... so I mean she knows the promises are true... she just has to keep telling herself the promises are true. That guy breaking up with her was so insanely sad for her... just because she thought it was never going to end like that... she was telling me how she was reading Proverbs 3:5-6 the day he called her... then she kept falling back on that verse AND a few minutes after she told me, we looked up in the room in the basement of the church (that we were in) and those exact verses were on a poster, right next to our heads. We both looked at it with no words to say. God is clearly giving her that verse to remember... pretty awesome I think.



we talked and talked... for probably 30 minutes or something. I really feel for her... she is one of my best friends and she is a great person... I just hope she pulls herself back together regardless of the future with him. I wish I could do more...



I guess prayer is a pretty good start. Anyways...



God really is good... all the time. She knows that.