So it’s the deuce, doubt ought eight, eh? I am excited. Something is always awesome about the New Year. Not quite sure what it is. It might be the Christmas in the air, or the brisk feeling outside while the snow dust is blowing, or the staying up late and watching the ball drop in NYC, or... I don't know. It is refreshing to wipe the slate clean... and mine is filthy. Not with all bad things... but its messy... my slate is full of stuff that happened in '07... just school and the insane-awesome summer I had, and more school and Christmas and everything. I have so many changes to make... I usually don't make "resolutions" per say... I have been doing this thing where I set "goals" that I rarely reach the way I want to. So I have actually thought it over and I think I know what I can resolve... (is that the right word? hmm...) Anyways since I didn't make it through both of my History classes this past semester (and didn't even do as well as I should have on my others honestly) I had one of my "swirly thinky times" yesterday. My bill came from school... $1,100. Thanks PCC. Happy New Year to you, too. Anyways, that was an insane amount... and then I remembered that I am broke and I think I blew my small scholarship (it wasn't much, but still a lot of money to waste) because of my History marks... and now I will have to retake them, wasting MORE money and even more importantly- time. Ah time. The inevitable enemy of mine.
But anyways I had a talk with dad where I ended up breaking down and letting it get way into my head that if I don't buckle up, I am messing up everything. I absolutely hate that feeling... it’s the feeling where you are safe and things are fine... for now. But you can see disaster happening. Something I think that feeling is worse than the disaster. When reality smacks you in the face... hurts.
I mean. Yeah. I know I can do something about it. I guess that is my point... it is not hopeless... and I mean hopefully in the future I can look back at this as just a bump in the road... but only if I take care of business and get it done. It was a good talk with dad. He is amazing... I hated hearing all that stuff but it was good and it was real. I have to stay on top of EVERYTHING. Once I let one thing take me down, I am done.
Anyways, on with the resolutions... I came to the point where I see that if I keep putting my God on the backburner, I will get no place fast. So I am going to make a bunch of new rules for school... but those come later.
Two things will I do this year.
1.- I want to read. I say that every year, but I figured out a way to get some progress made... I have a lot of books that need to be read. So my resolution is that I want to read all the books I own this year. That is a lot for me, but not a ton... no more than ten I don't think... so I think I can handle that... that way I can start getting more books and I won't be wasting my time. Anyways
2- More importantly I want -need- to get closer with God. So I am going to read my Bible in a year like I planned on doing while at school, but I will use that book that Paul gave us from youthgroup. It is fantastic... it goes through the whole Bible in a really cool order... it gives the passages to read and it gives some insight. I love it.
So that's it. Those are my goals. Simple, subtle, but doable. I wanna get to the point where it is in my brain that I need to get the Bible read. Anyways God has been good to be in '07 and I know He will continue.
God is good.... All the time
And that's where we are at.
